"Working Here Makes Me Sad"

Working here makes me sad."

That's what Kim said to Suzette when she quit the Bunny Ranch. Suzette just looked at her. Didn't say a word. What can you say to that ? When I think of it, "sad" is the most appropriate word to describe it. Of all the words I can think of to describe my tenure at the Bunny Ranch, "sad" sums it up for me.

I think that working there makes everyone sad. That's why they try to distance themselves from reality. It's not rocket science.

Mind-altering substances + distance from reality = the ability to work there. And for those poor souls who weren't on mind-altering substances, the "distance" thing is hard accomplish. If you cannot distance yourself, then your tenure at the brothel will be short indeed. Kim was one of their best employees, despite the fact that she was spending the night in my room frequently.

A few people knew it, too. But, because of her hard work and the respect that it earned her, as well as the "forcefield" of quasi-respect that I had, no one in management knew. Actually, we could have kept up that little charade for quite a while. But, then again....no we could not have. Know why ?

Because working there made us sad.

No one can have a healthy relationship and still be a Bunny-Bot. No. One. The key word there is "healthy." Kim and I left because we wanted to know each other in the real world and love each other without sneaking around. And I must say: I love her more and more each day. I doubt that I could have appreciated her and remained at the Ranch. And vice-versa.

How many of you could be in a relationship where your girlfriend, wife, or fiance was a prostitute ? And Kim saw me being a prostitute. She had to watch a guy pick me from line-up, go back into my room, and negotiate a party. She had to see me come out of my room after a couple of hours, with Dude's credit card in my hand, my eyes glowing because I just booked another $4000, and see me go back for another two hours of lay-for-pay. She watched it. How many of you could do that ?

No wonder she was so sad.